a flickering spark wanting to be appreciated for her warmth



<3 SONGS!

Fields of Gold - Sting
You were meant for me - Jewel
If i ain't got you - Alicia Keys
All of me - John Legend
Home - Phillip Phillips
L-O-V-E - Nat King Cole
How long will I love you - Ellie Goulding
The Glory of Love - The Five Keys

Labels: 2014, Adam Levine, emo, family, friends, God, hope, hopes and dreams, i will wait, lost, Lost Stars, love, pray, songs, work

Paris and London were wonderful. The memories were aplenty and I remembered mostly the good ones. They leave me teary. Why? I ask God as well.
I can only trust and pray.

Discovered new music today. Swedish band, Amarante's Don't Look Back. It was used as a background music for a video uploaded by a girl with depression and other mental illnesses. She chronicled her selfies for 6.5years from 14 to 21 years old. It was this song that struck me most.
It was soothing for the challenging times I've been having. I kinda got lost in 2 relationships that meant alot to me.

Wish me good luck for next Monday. It's a very very very important interview to me.  God bless us all.

That the world isn't fair 

This light doesn't owe you anything 

It's in your hands 

To make your own luck 

Live your own life 

You're awake 

Well, count on me 

When the world isn't kind 

And it leaves you behind 

All alone 

Just remember dear: 

You are a strong one 

You will not let it 

Knock you down 

Don't look back 

Just keep your head up 

Don't look back 

Just keep your head up 

Don't don't don't look back 

Just keep your head up 

Don't don't don't look back 

Just keep your head up

Labels: 2014, Amarante, don't look back, emo, family, friends, God, hope, life, london, love, memories, paris, relationships, scholarships, songs, work

Lately the skies seemed alil' less blue and everything appears to have that tinge of grey all over them. I feel like i'm sinking. Once again, me against the world. Has it been the bad shit I've done? What have I done? When will it all end? When will I see light and be blessed in its rays?

Labels: 2014, bad luck, coldplay, emo, family, friends, God, good luck, karma, life, lost, love, work

Labels: 2014, aimee mann, emo, family, friends, life, love, magnolia, movie, relationships, songs, wise up, work

1. Like everything else, there is always a curve. X-axis as one of the 3 factors and Y-axis as the happiness level. Up to a certain point, happiness level will plateau. No matter how much more money, health and security is given, you won't be any more happier.
2. Happiness and contentment are different concepts but they are also mindsets. They are determined by the individual and are dependent on the amount of resources and the circumstances in which one is bounded by. For e.g., I am born in a farm and I am contented with life as long as i am healthy to work, have food, shelter and my family in good health. I am happy when the weather is good, harvest is good and when there are no natural disasters or poor health. However, if I am ambitious and not contented with a little farm house because I've seen bigger houses on TV or I am driven by factors like i need more money to seek treatment for a family member, then I may not be happy with life and would want to go out there to earn more money.
3. Someone can be contented with life at how it is now because their knowledge of a good life is shaped by their society and culture. Maybe if they are given knowledge of alternative forms of good life, they may no longer be contented and happy with life. 
4. So maybe the northies are contented with life because that's the life they are born into and they are bounded by circumstances (i.e., they cannot leave the country). Therefore, they might as well live their life to the fullest. Are they happy and contented? Yes, at this point in time. However, given the freedom of choice to leave or stay? Some may want to, others may not. Because everyone has a different plateau/peak in the curve.
5. The beggars you see along streets or children with bloated stomachs because they have lack of proteins in their diets? They are probably happy and contented if they can have food and shelter everyday. Is that the end? To let them choose food and shelter everyday or a chance at being educated and work for a living? I won't be surprised if some choose option 1 and others, option 2. Because everyone has a different plateau/peak in the curve. However to not give them the basic food and shelter and security, then they are at the start of the curve and would therefore, definitely not be happy or contented.
6. In short, happiness is a very very effy concept and has many grey areas. The only way to know if someone is happy, is simply to ask. Even then, they may not really know better either. Most importantly, neither do we. It's a self-perceived value afterall.

Labels: 2013, 2014, BFF, food, happiness, health, holiday, hope, korea, love, north korea, peace, seoul, ski, snow, travel, wealth, winter, work, yongpyong ski resort

Is it too early for resolutions? I think I may have a couple of things I wanna achieve, things I've been thinking about but have not got down to really complete them.

Watched a not-worth-the-penny movie yesterday. But something did stick. The girl was hot, nice, smart and he did have an addiction but his sister saw through all that and told him that the girl has her own agenda - she wants what she wants and didn't really care about him at all.

Hope, we must have. God bless us all.

Labels: 2013, 2014, family, friends, goats, hope, life, love, money, resolutions, work

really, everything.
right now? just want to move out, get out, whatever.
no, i don't want to be alone. but not everyone can and wants to fill the gap either.

Labels: 2013, bad luck, family, friends, love, work

Labels: 2013, colours, family, fortune telling, good life, good luck, hope, life, love, numbers, work

Labels: 2013, emo, friends, life, love, relationships, work

Labels: 2013, family, friends, God, life, love, relationships, work

Running calms me. Running allows me to just keep moving on and on. My mind could be filled with fleeting thoughts of randomness and I'll still be running and I'll still be on track. It doesn't matter if I'm fast or slow, I'm moving on and that is all that matters to me. So when people say they like running in new places, for me, new places fluster me. I like familiarity. I like just running aimlessly yet I know where I am and I won't be lost. I like the ideas that come flooding into my head as I run. Sometimes I'm so filled with anger, I just want to tire myself out to feel too tired to feel anything at all. However, I do not reject new places. I love exploring, just that unlike running in familiar places where I can shut myself up and just run on and on while my brain does the wandering; when in new territories, my eyes wander all over to take in the new sights, my ears to take in new sounds and my nose to take in new scents and I tend to run abit slower because running becomes secondary to the joy for and curiosity towards the wonderful new environment. It's also less personal time for myself to reflect on the day's events and to generate new ideas and to mull over issues.

I like running. But my knees and my back do not agree with me.

I'm unhappy. I seemed to have helped with all the write-ups so far while you have appeared to be more concerned with the holiday than the amount of paper work needed to be done. So why do i feel that you blamed me for not being to go for some of the activities? I would have thought of blaming you but I didn't. Honestly, I thought something like this might've happened but I had no other choices. :( 

I would like to quit and do whatever I want for awhile. I'm not sure if I am financially capable of that though. :( Time waits for no one. I vividly remember this on the cover of the foolscap pad that mum used to buy for us when we were young. How true, indeed.

And now talk about Time. Time is one of the greatest forces of all...time. It is the silent killer of all feelings, the perfect ingredient for luck and success and the best teacher for every one of us.
Time heals all wounds, erodes all feelings and takes some pain away. No, I won't say completely but definitely most of it.
Perfect timing, people always say. Indeed, to do the right, or even wrong, thing at the right time almost guarantees you success. Unfortunately, such perfect timings, do not come more than once or twice.
Time teaches us lessons through the experiences we have gone through every living seconds, minutes, hours, days. We may or may not learn from the lessons but we definitely gain experiences.
I subscribe very much that time dulls feelings and memories and that right timing is crucial in most situations. I'm also very sure that everyone of us has learnt a thing or two from the times we have had through our lives thus far.
If you know me well, I'm a random person. As much as I prefer familiarity, I hate mundane-ness. I like to move on, try new things, explore and be happy. So time is important to me and time passes by even more quickly for someone like me. Recently, someone made me realised timing is really important and that with time, things change and I hope he learnt something this time. Noone likes to play second fiddle. Everyone wants to be treasured.

And so like Travis sings... I'm feeling like a driftwood but I don't want to drift anymore. I want to reach my shore. So where's the shore?

Land Ahoy! God bless.

Labels: 2013, anger, colleagues, driftwood, family, friends, ideas, life, love, money, quit, running, time, travel, Travis, work, youth

What do I remember most from 2012?
I've learnt about love a little more. I've learnt more about myself. I've learnt about friendships. But the more I've seen, experienced, cried over, thought about, laugh at and screamed out, the wiser I get but the more I do not know yet.

Perhaps loving someone and being loved shouldn't be so difficult.
Have I become so distrustful and insecure over the years to have them always proving themselves to me?
Am I so spoilt to always have to get my way with things?
Am I so temperamental to always have to be on the emotional rollercoaster ride?

And if i go beyond those years of bad experience and ponder upon my younger days, it was slow, comfortable and nice. It was taking effort to notice his likes, to understand his thoughts and to share our feelings through text messages, love notes, little gifts and long conversations.

Why has loving become such a haste?
I should and shall endeavor to take time to see, to hear, to feel and to love.



The recent escapade to London, Tromso, Oslo and Reyjkavik has been a good one. My four favorite pictures from the trip! :) Kind of represents Spring in the park, Summer dipping in bikini, Autumn pretty leaves and Winter wonderland winds.


The Aurora was amazing too. Seeing it glide, dance, scatter across the starry starry skies is simply beautiful. The milky way, Jupiter, constellations and the moonrise, it is all so romantic with the campfire, tea and biscuits. The cold was alittle too much with -12degs but it was all worth the experience! I loved it!





Being able to travel is my life's most wonderful gift. I enjoy the sounds, the sights, the food and the air. The whole experience is always different, always memorable.

In 2013, I would like to continue traveling and create more interesting memories to reminisce in my later years.

In 2013, I pray that God grants me love, hope, health and happiness for me and my loved ones.

Amen.

Labels: 2013, aurora, family, friends, iceland, london, love, norway, oslo, relationships, reyjkavik, tromso, work

Can you hear me?
I know it's not right, but i just can't walk away.

Can you stop this war that you've started?

I surrendered myself long ago...

God, please give me strength to go on with everything at home, at work and in love.
God, please send your blessings for me to love and be loved. Amen.

I want a love like what Daniel sings.





And when we fight we fight 
And it ain't a pretty site 
Well it's not complex 
It's the make up sex 
Though we always get that right 
Well they don't make a pill 
That can give me the thrill 
When you look at me 
Then I hear you say 

Take me out spin me around 
We can laugh when we both fall down 
Let's get stupid dancing with cupid tonight 
When I sing out of key 
Still play air guitar for me 
Let's get stupid dancing with cupid tonight 
Don't feel all kind of right

Labels: 2012, family, life, love, work

I wish for better relationships at home and at work and with D. I wanna have more money and time to travel more.

Most importantly, I wish for peace, love, health and great happiness.

Labels: 2011, 2012, family, friends, happiness, health, love, peace, travel, work

Previously on Earth

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Brand New Bags!

Good for weekends and work. Able to put magazines, files, notebook, ipad and a bottle of water to hydrate in this sunny weather.
Rich pebbled cowhide leather and a structured tote shape accented with 14 karat gold-plated hardware.
Contrast top-stitching with a double flat shoulder strap and a KATE SPADE NEW YORK" name plaque on the front center of the bag.
Has concealed zip-top closure that opens up to a pretty woven floral lining.
Has two open pockets trimmed in leather and a zipper pocket with leather accents and a "KATE SPADE NEW YORK" name plaque stitched into it.
ORP: US$365
Asking for $480!
Brand New With Tag. No dustbag.
20" Shoulder Straps
8" Shoulder Strap Drop
16" Width
13.5" Height
6" Depth


Longchamp Le Pliage in Rouge & Blanc


Favorite classic tote from Longchamp - Le Pliage in Blanc & Rouge
Zippered Tote
12" Long Handle - Cowhide Leather
1 Main Compartment with Zipper Opening and 1 Internal Pocket on the Front
Foldable for Easy Storage when Not In Use
Dimensions: 31x30x19cm
Made In France
Brand New!
ORP: $245
Asking for $185

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