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Dreams & Reality
Saturday, February 28, 2015 • 9:13 AM • 0 comments Woke up feeling rather gloomy today and the weather in Melbourne reflects exactly that. It has been sunny this week until today. Pretty sure it's gonna rain in an hour's time.Ever since I've moved into this room, I've had dreams every night. They are not pleasant at all. :( I often wake up feeling scared or sad. Today, it's been the worst. It's a stark reminder of what I've lost and it was painful. You would move on from all these memories because life and time goes on and being someone who's caught up with my own goals, I do move forward. However, we all would realise, that from time to time, these memories come back to haunt us. Once again, we find our hearts and minds really affected by them. I often feel alone when I feel this way but I'm pretty sure he does, everyone does. It's just how frequent and how much we allow ourselves to be affected by it. Moral of the story? I need a dreamcatcher! :p Meanwhile, being in Melbourne alone and starting on a new independent journey again, is a dream and goal come true! :) However in reality, this new phase of life may be giving some stress. Although I feel fine but my body and mind are finer calipers of balance and right now, I may be just feeling out of sorts while adjusting to life. So far, I'm quite thankful. Not many major hiccups and I'm grateful for many things that have happened and people who have helped. I can only continue to pray and hope for things to be good, for love, peace, health and happiness. Amen. The pictures kinda sum up what I've been doing. Coffee (loads), exploring lanes, night life (White Night!), Queen Victoria Market, CNY, Beaches (St Kilda)! :)       Labels: 2015, australia, coffee, dreamcatcher, dreams, emo, God, life, lost, love, melbourne, queen victoria market, st kilda, stress, travel His plans
Sunday, July 27, 2014 • 1:31 AM • 0 comments
Sometimes you can fight for what you want, go out and ask for what you want, work for what you want with your hard work but by now, you'd have realised for a fact that some things are just beyond your control. You live everyday doing what you can, hopefully all the things that makes you happy, all the things that you love and living till that one day, when everything you deserve, everything you wished for, everything you prayed for and everything you've been waiting for, happens. It may not be perfect but it will be what you need. I would like to believe that He knows what is best for me and He knows what I want and that everything will be alright and that happiness I know now will be different but better in my future.
I love this song. Not only because I like Adam Levine but also the catchy tune and the meaningful lyrics. The movie 'Begin Again' seems like a tear-jerking nice show too...
God bless the lost stars. Amen.
Labels: 2014, Adam Levine, emo, family, friends, God, hope, hopes and dreams, i will wait, lost, Lost Stars, love, pray, songs, work Little to smile about, Much to cry over
Sunday, April 27, 2014 • 11:36 PM • 0 comments Lately the skies seemed alil' less blue and everything appears to have that tinge of grey all over them. I feel like i'm sinking. Once again, me against the world. Has it been the bad shit I've done? What have I done? When will it all end? When will I see light and be blessed in its rays?
The waves kept rushing in, like a tsunami of passion and swept everything away
What's left are the debris from its destruction
Unrecognizable and unimaginable
Oh, all the tears and all the pain
They've all been robbed of love and all that remains, is so little, so little.
They tried to build it up all again, with their bare hearts and bare hands
Oh, all the tears and all the pain
Oh, all the tears and all the pain
Just because I'm losing Doesn't mean I'm lost. Doesn't mean I'll stop. Doesn't mean I'm across. Because, God, I have faith in you. Labels: 2014, bad luck, coldplay, emo, family, friends, God, good luck, karma, life, lost, love, work Australia
Tuesday, November 19, 2013 • 12:17 PM • 0 comments
It has now become a place where i'll remember it for the flyboys.
   
Always had a love-hate relationship with sunsets. It's always so beautiful end to the day. No matter how pleasant or how horrible the day is, it ends with a dramatic crimson sunset. So beautiful yet so transient. Ah, isn't this life? Our fragile but beautiful life.
It is funny how it is often more wonderful to watch it abroad than right here. Probably because it's often exhilarating to be in a foreign land seeing the same sun setting in the far horizon. It's amazing how we can be far apart and still be looking at the same sun, breathing the same air and be under the same skies.
The last time I was in Sydney, never knew it was the last of you and me. I probably was the one who played it out that way too. Don't think I've changed much in looks or so i hope, (Thank God) but a great deal of other things about me and around me have changed. Not sure if I welcomed them all but it's not something I can do much about but to embrace and move on.
And so this might be my favorite photo before the sunset.
I'm stuck in a loop that I want to get out of!
Pretty sure I've embedded this video before but here you go...
Hello stranger.
Hope. Love. Life. Faith. Labels: 2013, australia, blower's daughter, closer, damien rice, emo, hope, life, lost, love, memories, perth, psychology, strangers, sydney Safe and Sound
Tuesday, August 13, 2013 • 6:10 PM • 0 comments
Could you show me love?
Could you lift me up?
Could you show me what I want to see?
I want to be safe and sound.
note: and so original mtv cannot be embedded here so here's a recording of a live performance.
Labels: 2013, capital cities, lost, love, safe and sound Lost in time
Friday, March 15, 2013 • 4:24 PM • 0 comments  I love this look in this photo taken when i was in LA. It is either I'm lost or I'm attracted/distracted by something, someone. All my life, I've always been distracted. It's a love-hate relationship. I love the random thoughts, the sudden passion for new things, experiences, events and activities and the adrenaline or happy feelings that come out of it. I become restless when I sit down and do nothing but the mundane routine and always not contented with what I've already gain. There's always something or someone out there I feel a need to explore, to know, to feel. I hate the need to always have to move and the fatigue from finding new interests in order to keep the boredom at bay. I hate that this constant distraction from what's at hand and often not able to concentrate long enough has kinda made me a master of none or under-perform. Sometimes, I would like to focus on what's infront of me and go for it and I would also really want to learn to be contented. To stop and smell the roses and just relax. Yes, I do enjoy this but then after awhile, I'll be wondering 'what is next then?' So many possibilities in this world, this life, this universe and God only gave us one shot at it. We only live once each year, each day, each minute. We can never return to the same spot again. We can do the same things, be with the same person but it will never ever be the same. We all age and one day we will all have to leave our lives behind forever. Look at how my beloved Lulu has grown and how I've grown with her. We tend to take people and pets for granted but I know everyone of you is always in my mind and in my heart. <3          Some things never change over time even when they say that the only constant across time is Change. I still believe in hope and hope is the only important force that keeps us sane and alive. I believe that if something or someone is worth it, it doesn't matter what others say, you fight to treasure it because these are things and people that make you happy and give you hope in life. If you're not happy n this life and have no hope in life, then what is life worth living for? Let us have not only eyes to see what's infront of us, ears to hear what's around us, sense to understand what's there for us but also a good heart to feel what's not always there, yet definitely exists. Let that be love. Let us have the strength to never walk away from each other. Let us have the determination to stay together and overcome. Let us have the ability to see, to hear, to sense and to feel happiness in the brightest days and in the darkest nights. Let there be love. God, please grant me and those I love and whom loves me, the fortune to be happy and hopeful, always. Amen. Labels: 2013, california, change, couple, family, friends, God, hope, JC, life, lost, love, lulu, pageants, time |
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