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Woke up feeling rather gloomy today and the weather in Melbourne reflects exactly that. It has been sunny this week until today. Pretty sure it's gonna rain in an hour's time.

Ever since I've moved into this room, I've had dreams every night. They are not pleasant at all. :( I often wake up feeling scared or sad. Today, it's been the worst. It's a stark reminder of what I've lost and it was painful. You would move on from all these memories because life and time goes on and being someone who's caught up with my own goals, I do move forward. However, we all would realise, that from time to time, these memories come back to haunt us. Once again, we find our hearts and minds really affected by them. I often feel alone when I feel this way but I'm pretty sure he does, everyone does. It's just how frequent and how much we allow ourselves to be affected by it.

Moral of the story? I need a dreamcatcher! :p

Meanwhile, being in Melbourne alone and starting on a new independent journey again, is a dream and goal come true! :) However in reality, this new phase of life may be giving some stress. Although I feel fine but my body and mind are finer calipers of balance and right now, I may be just feeling out of sorts while adjusting to life.

So far, I'm quite thankful. Not many major hiccups and I'm grateful for many things that have happened and people who have helped. I can only continue to pray and hope for things to be good, for love, peace, health and happiness. Amen.

The pictures kinda sum up what I've been doing.

Coffee (loads), exploring lanes, night life (White Night!), Queen Victoria Market, CNY, Beaches (St Kilda)! :)

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Woohoo! I love puns and this has been a busy Lunar New Year with all the house visits and gatherings but it feels fulfilling. I need proper rest this weekend though.
Perhaps I should endeavor to cut down on the parties. I can feel the years pile up on my face over just 4 days of CNY.

I must say I've been very lucky with cards recently and been winning. It's rare for me to be this lucky. I certainly don't see such good luck in other aspects of my life yet. I'm hoping, praying and wishing.


The rising and falling of the moon and the sun
The ebb and flow of seas and tides
Life goes on in circles and cycles

Caught in the tangle of love and hate
Pricked by pain and desire
Bitten by fear and hurt

Let me feel the exhilaration
Of intense joy and passion
Let me feel the reason
To wake and greet every day
To see us smile again

Give me the strength and faith to hold on to hopes and dreams and to see your blessings in their delivery. God bless! Amen.

Love love coffeeeeeee! Thanks to my pangsters for nespresso mornings. :) <3

Birthday @ brother's

Labels: 2013, birthday, CNY, coffee, family, friends, God, nespresso, puns

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