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Like a child who lost her lollies
Saturday, June 20, 2015 • 9:49 PM • 0 comments 
Victoria is beautiful. I love her nature and one can imagine how frustrated and sad I am to have lost the ability to explore her for a long time. I'm still thankful to be alive and that recovery, no matter how slow and painful, will come. But 2nd May and the days to follow, was an unpleasant period in my entire life so far. I really hope nothing like this would happen to me or anyone I love again. This photo was taken shortly before it happened. I still love exploring the wilderness and I can't wait to be back out there again.
I could only pray for the wisdom and strength to recover mentally, emotionally, spiritually and definitely physically.When I am, the world will know and I hope I will be able to forgive and move on.
Having my mother to care for me, was heaps of help to me. I appreciate the company although I have been really quick tempered due to all that frustration which has been better these days. Living alone has its perks and troughs but at times like these, I'm thankful for support from family and friends. Only in times of difficulties, you know who are those who really do care and show actions for it.
It's always amazing to have company. Many times in my life, I could have had found company but I guess I never really wanted company. I wanted someone who provides more than that. Chemistry is important and then after that, I want someone I could learn from and whom I can teach and we respect each other's expertise, so that we could grow and learn together. I want someone who is giving enough to let me win but quietly confident of himself. I want someone with dreams and ambitions and the drive to pursue them because I want to look up to him and run along side him with my dreams and ambitions. I want someone who has similar wide-ranging tastes in life like food, music, travel, books, movies, so that we can share our love for them and create new experiences together. Most of all, I want to feel and know that I am more important than anyone and anything in the world to him because I know one day, he'll be the world to me. I may not satisfy these wants, but as long as I'm breathing, I still hope one day, someone will love me like I do and that I will know that I love him too.
Meanwhile, I pray for love, peace, health and happiness. Amen.
Buenas Nouches.
Labels: 2015, accident, australia, God, hope, kangeroo, life, love, victoria Dreams & Reality
Saturday, February 28, 2015 • 9:13 AM • 0 comments Woke up feeling rather gloomy today and the weather in Melbourne reflects exactly that. It has been sunny this week until today. Pretty sure it's gonna rain in an hour's time.Ever since I've moved into this room, I've had dreams every night. They are not pleasant at all. :( I often wake up feeling scared or sad. Today, it's been the worst. It's a stark reminder of what I've lost and it was painful. You would move on from all these memories because life and time goes on and being someone who's caught up with my own goals, I do move forward. However, we all would realise, that from time to time, these memories come back to haunt us. Once again, we find our hearts and minds really affected by them. I often feel alone when I feel this way but I'm pretty sure he does, everyone does. It's just how frequent and how much we allow ourselves to be affected by it. Moral of the story? I need a dreamcatcher! :p Meanwhile, being in Melbourne alone and starting on a new independent journey again, is a dream and goal come true! :) However in reality, this new phase of life may be giving some stress. Although I feel fine but my body and mind are finer calipers of balance and right now, I may be just feeling out of sorts while adjusting to life. So far, I'm quite thankful. Not many major hiccups and I'm grateful for many things that have happened and people who have helped. I can only continue to pray and hope for things to be good, for love, peace, health and happiness. Amen. The pictures kinda sum up what I've been doing. Coffee (loads), exploring lanes, night life (White Night!), Queen Victoria Market, CNY, Beaches (St Kilda)! :)       Labels: 2015, australia, coffee, dreamcatcher, dreams, emo, God, life, lost, love, melbourne, queen victoria market, st kilda, stress, travel You're Beautiful
Saturday, November 15, 2014 • 1:35 PM • 0 comments
I'm not sure why but this song struck me at a recent church wedding I've attended. The song was sang by Phil Wickham but this rendition is nice too. :)
I'm not good with uncertainties.
I hope everything turns out fine and goes well.
I'll be forever thankful.
Labels: 2014, God, hope, phil wickham, pray, sarah reeves, uncertainties, weekends, you're beautiful the tiny dusty corner of my heart and mind
Monday, October 13, 2014 • 10:33 PM • 0 comments
it's funny how many years it has been
still there are so many little things that make me think of you
every little thought of you makes my tender heart ache alil' more
i often wonder if you would think of me too
if your heart beats alil' slower whenever the very little things remind you of me
if you still miss the good times we've had
if.
so many things i might have regretted, but i think that part of my youth, with you and me, will always be the one regret, the one memory, the one i'll always remember, bittersweetly, you.
God bless my tender heart and the love and grace I'll receive again. Amen.
"Heart Beats Slow" by Angus & Julia Stone
Well I heard you were
You were lying About how brave you are Well I heard you were You were still trying Trying to get back to the start No, he won't let it into the kitchen No, he won't let it into the house No, he won't let it through the front door 'Cause it's burning her pretty little heart I'm gonna miss you Gonna miss you, girl And all of the things we could've done You said I move so fast That you can hardly see You said I move so fast How could you be with me? But my heart beats slow But my heart beats slow But my heart beats slow But my heart beats slow Well, I wish you, wish you well All the best Well, I wish you, I wish you well All the best No, he won't let it into the kitchen No, he won't let it into the house No, he won't let it through the front door 'Cause it's burning her pretty little heart You said I move so fast That you can hardly see You said I move so fast How could you be with me? But my heart beats slow But my heart beats slow But my heart beats slow But my heart beats slow Labels: 2014, angus & julia stone, emo, God, heart beats slow, indie, love, memories, music, regrets, songs Use Somebody
Thursday, October 2, 2014 • 10:37 PM • 0 comments Once again, I feel this way. I hope what I choose to do is what God had wanted me to do. I pray for peace, love, health and happiness. Amen.Labels: 2014, emo, family, friends, God, life, love, pensive, relationships |
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