a flickering spark wanting to be appreciated for her warmth



<3 SONGS!

Fields of Gold - Sting
You were meant for me - Jewel
If i ain't got you - Alicia Keys
All of me - John Legend
Home - Phillip Phillips
L-O-V-E - Nat King Cole
How long will I love you - Ellie Goulding
The Glory of Love - The Five Keys

I remember times in the bedroom.
a time we bundled up, under the covers and you'd look at me,
'the world's an ugly place but you're so beautiful to me'
I remember times in the car.
driving around aimlessly, enjoying the ride and watching you take over me
'and what a beautiful mess this is'
every part of his lyrics is a chapter of my story, it's hauntingly so
As I hide myself in the quiet comfort of my room
I imagine having someone special next to me
you and me, against the world, and all we ever need is each other,
that'll be what you'll whisper to me.

One of my favorite French movie, Jeux d'enfants, where life is a game of dares.


You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
And based on your body language,
And shoddy cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
Though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
That this is just what happiness is

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear
Cause here we are, Here we are
Here we are...
We're still here
What a beautiful mess this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes

Through timeless words, and priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds, not of this earth
And times they turn, and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together
And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts
But it's nice today, oh the wait was so worth it.




She'll lie and steal, and cheat, and beg you from her knees
Make you think she means it this time
She'll tear a hole in you, the one you can't repair
But I still love her, I don't really care

When we were young, oh, oh, we did enough
When it got cold, ooh, ooh, we bundled up
I can't be told, ah, ah, it can't be done

It's better to feel pain, than nothing at all
The opposite of love's indifference
So pay attention now, I'm standing on your porch screaming out
And I won't leave until you come downstairs

So keep your head up, keep your love
Keep your head up, my love
Keep your head up, my love
Keep your head up, keep your love

And I don't blame you dear for running like you did all these years
I would do the same, you'd best believe
And the highway signs say we're close but I don't read those things anymore
I never trusted my own eyes

When we were young oh, oh, we did enough
When it got cold, ooh, ooh we bundled up
I can't be told, ah, ah, it can't be done

So keep your head up, keep your love
Keep your head up, my love
Keep your head up, my love
Keep your head up, keep your love
Head up, love
Head up, love
Head up, love
Head up, love

Labels: 2013, french, jason mraz, jeux d'enfants, la vie en rose, love, lumineers, youth

My wife got sick. 
She was constantly nervous because of problems at work, personal life, her failures and problems with children. 
She has lost 30 pounds and weighted about 90 pounds in her 35 years. She got very skinny, and was constantly crying. She was not a happy woman. She had suffered from continuing headaches, heart pain and jammed nerves in her back and ribs. She did not sleep well, falling asleep only in the morning and got tired very quickly during the day. 
Our relationship was on the verge of break up. 
Her beauty was leaving her somewhere, she had bags under her eyes, she was poking her head, and stopped taking care of herself. She refused to shoot the films and rejected any role. 
I lost hope and thought that we’ll get divorced soon… 

But then I decided to act on it. After all I’ve got the most beautiful woman on the earth. She is the ideal of more than half of men and women on earth, and I was the one allowed to fall asleep next to her and to hug her shoulders. 
I began to pepper her with flowers, kisses and compliments. I surprised her and pleased every minute. I gave her lots of gifts and lived just for her. I spoke in public only about her. I incorporated all themes in her direction. I praised her in front of her own and our mutual friends. You won’t believe, but she has blossomed. She became even better than before. She gained weight, was no longer nervous and she loved me even more than ever. I had no clue that she CAN love that much.

And then I realized one thing: “The woman is the reflection of her man"

- A Secret Love, Brad Pitt

Labels: 2013, life, love, relationships, richard marx

I met a girl today.
sometimes it's just so hard to hold on to something.
it's not water flowing through your fingers,
that, you would have figured out, was never something you could hold on to,
but you'll never forget that feeling of crystal cool water running through your fingers.
it's not necklace dangling down your fingers,
that, you would have realised, may have parts of the chain out of your hand and between your fingers, but you can feel it, grab it, hold on to it forever.
Yet this, this is like coarse sand, it's the kind of sand sieving through the gaps between my fingers.
not too quickly, not too slowly, but it is just disappearing,
and it may hurt you as the sand rubs against the delicate skin,
and you enjoy the tactile feel to it, you can feel it, grab it and hold some of it in your hand,
but the harder you try to hold it, the more sand is forced out through the gaps, the more hurt is felt.
but the more you let go, the more sand rolls off your palm, the more regret is left.
until a few specks are left as a reminiscence of what once belonged to you.
it was bittersweet and we wept,
and just like that, she stood barenaked, infront of me.

just a side note: as much as i'm glad to know my thoughts are read, i'd prefer they remain as thoughts read and not discussed. it's just...you know...weird.


this is just one of those times, i feel like a hermit and all i wanna do is just hide in my safe little shell, just want to be alone, just feel that noone will ever understand me, noone will ever be right and i know some people do care but i just don't know anything anymore.




and then i heard a song somewhere in my head:

they say,
these sleepless nights would just, go away
people fighting on to stay, stay their way.
they say,
these ugly feelings would just, disappear
never left me throughout these growing years, growing years.

everyone sees the smile on my face
everyone sees the mask on my face
but nobody ever stops
nobody ever stops.
hear me cry, hear me scream
they only get angry when i'm no longer smiling
but this ain't a circus
but this ain't your circus
and i ain't your happy clown.

Labels: 2013, emo, life

I've not travelled much of SEA and so Penang was a pleasantly nice break. I enjoyed the awesome food and DIY day-tour of the street art.

Labels: 2013, Arty Ring, birthday, Cartier, Celine, family, Ferragamo, friends, iPhone 5, love, money, Penang, SEA Aquarium, USA, wedding, weight, YSL

Previously on Earth • Presently in Paradise

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Brand New Bags!

Good for weekends and work. Able to put magazines, files, notebook, ipad and a bottle of water to hydrate in this sunny weather.
Rich pebbled cowhide leather and a structured tote shape accented with 14 karat gold-plated hardware.
Contrast top-stitching with a double flat shoulder strap and a KATE SPADE NEW YORK" name plaque on the front center of the bag.
Has concealed zip-top closure that opens up to a pretty woven floral lining.
Has two open pockets trimmed in leather and a zipper pocket with leather accents and a "KATE SPADE NEW YORK" name plaque stitched into it.
ORP: US$365
Asking for $480!
Brand New With Tag. No dustbag.
20" Shoulder Straps
8" Shoulder Strap Drop
16" Width
13.5" Height
6" Depth


Longchamp Le Pliage in Rouge & Blanc


Favorite classic tote from Longchamp - Le Pliage in Blanc & Rouge
Zippered Tote
12" Long Handle - Cowhide Leather
1 Main Compartment with Zipper Opening and 1 Internal Pocket on the Front
Foldable for Easy Storage when Not In Use
Dimensions: 31x30x19cm
Made In France
Brand New!
ORP: $245
Asking for $185

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