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re·lapse/riˈlaps/

Verb:

(of someone suffering from a disease) Suffer deterioration after a period of improvement.

Can someone give me a pill to make me feel better? I need valium.

I'll be running away for awhile. I want to forget you and everything about you. I want to keep a space for someone who loves me more than you do and I want to fall in love again.

Can anybody hear me? Does anybody care?

God, please show me the way to happiness. Amen.

Labels: 2012, emo, holiday, love, relapse

I've never felt this way for so long. My tears still don't stop coming ever since 1st October. I hope with every tear drop, a part of the memories with you flows away. I don't want to hold on to them anymore. It hurts. I really really just want to let go and move on. Everytime I think about letting go, I think of how hard I fought to hold on and the good moments we had that led me to persevere.

I should think about how much you do not love me enough that's why you never really caught me when I fell so hard for you and all you wanted to do when times are rough is to let me go.




There's a new song that seems to speak to me about my situation.
"You're someone who never minded letting us go, letting me go. I need someone who never will let me go."

It's taking us downtown 
You're watching me watching me watching me go 
But I never listen 
No I never let you know 

Now heading uptown 
Is there something or nothing you wanted to say? 
'Cause I need to go now 
Do you want me to stay? 
I said stay 

What you need to know 
Is to try and let it go let it go 
What you need to find 
Is someone who never will let you go 

And oh oh 
Sunshine and city lights will guide you home 
And oh oh 
Yeah you gotta know that I'll never you go 

 Now we're stuck in midtown 
Surrounded by people and nothing but sound 
And we're going nowhere 
And we are the lost and found 

We're all over this town 
Is there something or nothing you wanted to say? 
'Cause I need to go now 
Do you want me to stay? 
I said stay 

What you need to know 
Is to try and let it go let it go 
What you need to find 
Is someone who never will let you go 
And oh oh 
And sunshine and city lights will guide you home 
And oh oh 
Yeah you gotta know that I'll never you go

Labels: 2012, emo, greyson chance, letting go, love, sunshine and city lights

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